By Gary Sohmers, 2017 copyright, All Rights Reserved
Chapter One – Introduction to a New Reality
Squirrels appear to me to be kinda dumb creatures that have no purpose except as part of the food chain and watching them brought little amusement. I’m sitting peacefully watching as this one squirrel appears to be watching me. The last thing I remember clearly of my previous reality was this squirrel moving toward me while I was trying to take a picture of him with my mobile phone.
I was hit by a blinding beam of sunlight as the squirrel leaped toward me, and then felt a chemical reaction inside me, similar to the initial onset of LSD, a short twinge that went through my system like an electrical current. Since I am used to unusual feelings, I did not become alarmed, only curious. Maybe it was just the warmth of the sun, or the outbreak of a migraine. I closed my eyes to look for the “floaters” in my eyes in order to make sure it was not a migraine. There were none, so it was not.
Thinking back to what I had eaten and drank to this point, I felt that maybe I was dosed, given a psychedelic drug without my knowledge which has been customary at concerts in my past but had only eaten and drank what I had brought for myself. So I ruled that out. But the feeling was growing almost like the acid was rushing through my veins and nerves like previous trips. I can dig the feeling because I have always enjoyed the combo of adrenaline and hallucinogens, but was curious still about what was happening and why.
It was at that moment that I felt completely calm, and feeling like I was outside of my body, like in a previous spiritual meditation experience, but it appeared to be quite a bit more complex. In moments it appears as though massive universal knowledge was available to my brain. But in reality that would not be possible, so my rational mind attempted to dispel such foolishness. These thoughts must be imaginary.
Yet the thoughts grew stronger, along with what felt like chemicals continuing to rush through my bloodstream and nervous system. More knowledge in a very short time period was being inputted into my memory. My internal defenses from deep in my subconscious began to rebuff the incursion into my brain as I was trying to decide if I was losing my mind. After all the experiences in my long life in show biz, I sensed that this was not going to break me. But I am not giving in until I understand more.
I felt a connection, like meeting an old friend, within me, as my innermost fears were subsiding as if a bonding conversation was being rekindled. Even though it appears that everything around me is going on as usual, inside me I believe that some impulse has come from beyond into my being. Since I eliminated exterior chemical additives, maybe it was my expanding imagination since I have always been a dreamer.
OK, now I just realized that maybe I should stop staring at my phone, maybe I was hypnotized or had some subliminal message infiltrate my mind. But I couldn’t turn away. It felt like my brain was wired to the internet and wirelessly downloading everything faster than I could imagine. I still felt calm, and although I was concerned, it melted.
For some complacent reason, I now rely on my device for some of my memory and it often supports my core belief principles drawing from Internet sources for knowledge, news, and resources. Now, it appears that everything seemed like it was the way it was supposed to be, mentally functioning at the level I am used to in my job function, yet somehow more aware. I also felt as though there we two of me operating my functions, thoughts and actions, not in competition, but in a learning exercise or coordination.
Everything kicked in so smoothly to me, I no longer felt any resistance to the impulses, like when the acid is clean it gives a feeling of willingness and happiness and dissolution of the ego. So based on past experiences defining current ones, I assumed I must just be tripping.
I do know to go with the flow.